See Yourself as a Novice Buddha Sitting Surrounded……


Conversations with Yeshua.  This is channeled material, edited minimally for clarity only. It is personal information given to me and my husband Stan, but relevant to many situations and this is one I am asked to share with the world. From a session with a client. 

Client:  I feel the biggest issue that I need help with right now is regarding how to make my living.  I need at least double what I’m doing now. I don’t know the best avenues if any to make that happen. I’d like guidance about how to find about the ways to do that if indeed that’s what I’m supposed to be doing.

Y.  The question has been received and we are giving Linda just a  little time to step to the side so that her thoughts do not intrude.

We see you as immensely rich, and at peace. We’re going to give you an image that you can meditate upon. We see you sitting upon your cushion, meditating, surrounded, literally in this order, by gold coins, by a ring of rich and beautiful foods, and by people listening to you, receiving what’s coming through you.  And you in the center, at peace, knowing all this is yours.

Meditation You have gifts that have come in with you, gifts that you have polished and refined, the gift of a soulful eye which you use with your art, the gift of kindness which you feel and practice towards the world at large and the gift of healing which you have honed by doing your own work.

Add to this the gift of your words, the ability to put all those things into words and you are —truly —gifted.

But we also know that you have old familiar shackles that you still carry with you that keep you from even remembering those gifts at times. They are heavy like a ball and chain despite all the work you’ve done, and you feel frustrated with this at times, is that correct?

C: Yes.  And more stubborn to change than I would like to admit. There’s something inside me I feel little control over that feels stuck and stubborn and unwilling to change. Fearful.


We are going to ask you to —and we are going to ask you to repeat this practice —we are going to ask to to do something that dis-identifies with your name and personality.

This could be an astral journey, or this could be a meditative practice. But within this we’re going to ask you to pretend you’ve died.

Pretend you have died.

Imagine how you would want to come back?  How would you bless this soul that is you with your greatest love?  as if for your dearest friend or your nephew or anyone you felt love towards.

How would you want them to come back to the next lifetime?  What would you gift them with?

And you don’t have to answer that now but if you have an answer we’re willing to listen.  What would you bless them with?

C: Love. Belief in their own gifts.

Would you bless them with a loving family, or a challenging family?  And if you don’t know that’s alright. Doesn’t matter.

C: I don’t know. I want to say a loving family.


C: It’s been hard without that. Hard to find a place to stand in my life. Hard to believe in myself.

Play with that. Meditate on that. And then, go through a ceremony for yourself. Die.

"Hello Darkness" tall bearded Iris
“Hello Darkness” Iris

Then come back with all these gifts that you already have refined and honed. But you don’t have to live them as You, The Wounded One anymore. You can let him die and you can have a beautiful ceremony, for all the good he’s done and all the hard work that he’s done.

You are a soul. You are not only what Your Self experiences. Do you believe that?

C: Yeah, I believe that, I just can’t quite comprehend it.

Well, let’s imagine for a moment. (We’re taking you out to the edge.) Let’s imagine for a moment that you had received a dire diagnosis last week, and this was perhaps the last expectation of a week with your family.

Everything would be sweet and rich. Even all the pain you’ve suffered in your life, yes?

C: Yes, probably.

And the people that have loved you, and the love you’ve experienced, and the teachers that you’ve had and the joys you’ve had with your cats.

And then, somewhere along in the next few months, you die.

And what happens then? What do you take with you and what do you leave behind?

C: I don’t know how that works. I think I take the love that I have cultivated.


C: I fear I also take the challenges and the stuck-ness. And the fears.

Do you believe you have to?

C: I’ve been told that’s the way it works.

You’ve been told you have to take that with you?

C: Well, that that’s the way the cosmos works. We carry with ourselves both the freedom and the stuck-ness.

Well we’re going to tell you that we don’t agree with that. And that you don’t have to take the stuck-ness with you. We’re not saying it’s not real, we’re saying you don’t have to take it with you.

And you don’t have to die to do what we’re describing to you. But you have to go through some sort of death.

C: Yeah. I understand.

Different traditions will give it different names. The tradition that we are in, as Yeshua, we would call it forgiveness, compassion, and complete surrender.  In other traditions it might be called the Emptiness. There may be other words for it. What we are suggesting is a complete Death.  to everything tangible and everything that feels stuck to you.

Wrestle with, if you need to, wrestle with the part of you that says “You have to take all this with you.”

We say to you that part is the unforgiveness. Unforgiving of yourself, unforgiving of certain others, and we know its there, we get that, but you do not have to take it with you. But you have to use more keys to unlock that since it is part of your belief system.

Death is actually a freedom, a release when a person gets too tired of the patterns, and a chance to start over with compassion, with love. Some people do bring more than others with them. But that’s not the rule. There is no requirement for that.

If you can go through a deep and radical forgiveness you can do it all and keep this same body.  It is possible and others have done it before you. If you start watching for those who have left behind a life of stuck-ness, a life of unforgiveness, you will see them. and we say to you, “You can do that.”

And when the voice comes up that says, “No, you’ve been too wounded, this will never work, it doesn’t work for me,” you respond, “When I die, I want to leave behind the stuck-ness. I want to leave with only Love, only Compassion, and hey, while I’m at it, I’m gonna do it before I die.”

Do you believe that’s possible?

C: I believe it, like, I hear the words, and it makes sense and I could see somebody else doing it, I don’t believe it in that I don’t know HOW, I don’t know Step 1 to take that I haven’t already tried a hundred times before. And with discouragement I say that.


Then the other suggestion we are going to make is this: we say to you this is possible. We say to you, you may want to make that decision in advance of your physical death to burden yourself less in your next lifetime, and we’re saying to you you can do it in this lifetime.

If you don’t believe it, call upon your favorite teachers and say, “Help Me Believe This!”

Any one of them, all of them.  And we’re sure you know this, you’ve told others this —you don’t have to know HOW to do it. You just have to have a sincere and deep intention.  And then kind of… go have fun.

C: Yeah, I know that. One of the most reliable ways I can get in touch with my open heartedness is I think of the many people who have honored me with their surrender to my wisdom.  And have asked me for help.

And most of them received help yes?

C: Yes.

You are no less worthy

C: I can almost get in touch with willingness to change just in order that I might be more available to more people.


C: I know there are limitations when I am more stuck.

The use of the word STUCK is not entirely accurate. We would describe to you that you, over the years, have certainly changed, you have certainly made progress. But this is a way you describe yourself, and to you it feels as if the soul progress, the soul unfolding, the awakening process is very slow.

So we would invite you to stop using the word stuck, and just say, “I would like to release more, faster, and if that means I need to forgive my mother, if that means I need to forgive Trump, if that means I need to forgive… I’m willing to do anything that’s real and loving in order to get unstuck.”

You may not be able to say that today. But that’s what we invite you to say. And of course, we won’t even try to describe to you what could happen in your life and in your work as you do these things.

We started you out with a vivid image. Instead of seeing you the way you see yourself now, as a stuck curmudgeon, see yourself as a novice buddha sitting surrounded by everything you could have ever wanted.  With people listening to your words and benefitting from them.

You are that. And it’s right there for you.

The answer to your question about your work is that the way you see yourself and the way you hold that stuck-ness as a default setting is the first thing that has to change.

You could market and market and market and as long as you hold that stuck energy feeling, you won’t have much more success than you have now. This is the answer that is relevant today.

If you were really facing Death how much do you want to take with you?  How much do you think God or the Universe or Karma requires you to take with you? Think about those things.   And then, if you choose, do it now, instead of at whatever time you choose to lay your body down.


Election Harmony (or “Who are you?”)

Moses-Ascended Mater Card by Doreen Virtue

Election Harmony?  Well, that seems impossible.  Just the title is enough to cause scorn.    I have friends who just want the election season to be over because of the angst it is causing them.

Me too sometimes.  But I keep asking for a higher perspective.  And here’s what is coming:

Mr. Trump has unleashed the shadow side of our people.  At his rallies and in his arena it’s okay to hate, to put women, minorities, handicapped and many other groups down.  If you are not white and male you are in trouble.  Physically sometimes.

I’m appalled.  I grew up in the after-shadow of WWII and heard and read stories of the Nazis’ gradual rise to power.  I get cold sweats when I tap into the similarities with Trump’s hate-campaign.

I realize many of you don’t like Hillary, and I’m not a huge fan either – too much corporate influence.  But I would far rather have a corporate-influenced capable and kind woman, than a hateful, ignorant, trigger-happy man. His platforms have no policy content… just racism, misogyny and lies.

Her, we can work with.  Her, we can hold to the fire.

Mr. Trump?   Don’t bet on it.

The hatefulness is appalling, but in many ways, that shadow side has been underground in our country for as long as we have been a nation.   Now – it’s out in the open.

The shadow coming out into the light asks you – and me – a big question:

Who are you?

Are you the hater?

Are you the scorner?

Are you the “Make America white again” voter?

Are you the head-in-the-sand ostrich?

Are you the worrier?

Seeing the Shadow appear in this prominent a way triggers the Shadow in all of us.   Fear.  Finger pointing.  Judgement.

What I find when I answer the question, Who am I?  is my voice.  I cannot stay silent.  Whatever I care about in this land and this world is at stake. 

When I watched the Arab spring via newscasts a few years back I was moved to tears by the courage of the people who knowingly risked – and sometimes  lost – their lives for this movement towards freedom and justice.  As if, their own personal life was less important than the greater cause of justice and freedom.

We are raised on such stories, as Americans.  But are we living it?  Don’t make your politics party-line.  Pray about it.  This is not a year for stubbornness… this is a year to ask Who Am I?   What is really at stake here and what am I to do about it?                        Moses-Ascended Mater Card by Doreen Virtue

Personally –

I choose to invite, via prayer, Jesus and the angels to guide each of the candidates and each of the voters.

I choose to stand up to bullies, whether it’s in my personal world, or in the larger world.

I choose to repeatedly turn my fear about this election season over to Jesus, and ask for faith in a joyful outcome instead.

I choose to say – out loud and in writing – you, Mr. Trump and your supporters, cannot take our people back to hate and injustice.  I refuse to go and any power I have I will use.   I will use my power with respect, but not with timidity.

My hero, Bernie Sanders, fully understands the gravity of the situation. To any of my Bernie-supporting friends I would ask you… if you respect him enough to have wanted him to be President, then respect him enough to take his advice on this choice.  He is fully supporting Hillary and asks us to do so, then go on to create and demand progressive policies with integrity.


To vote 3rd party will give Trump an edge that may cost us our democracy and who knows what else.  The stakes are high.

The hatefulness that Trump inflames is deeply reminiscent of Hitler.  But we, the American people, are not 1930’s Germany.

We are diverse.  We are loving.  We love justice.  We can be kind.

Are we easily led, easily fooled by the media?  Are we ignorant and uncaring?

Are you willing to let Mr. Trump run over handicapped people, just because you are not handicapped?   To let him ridicule women, because you are not a woman?   To let him scorn people of color, because you are white?  And more?    He already has enough power to create waves of hatred and fear, to command the media.   If you vote for him, or let your vote mean nothing because you refuse to acknowledge the system we are in – right now – you are in agreement with his intentions by default.   You are giving him more power.

Ask yourself the hard questions this election season: Who Am I?

And please, invoke the angels and your highest spiritual teacher in the name of Love and Light.  Choose your words and your vote in the name of Love.

I’m called to speak.   Writing this brings me greater harmony.  This is part of Who I  Am.

—- Linda Chubbuck, September 2016, on


Why Standing up to Your Inner Bully Can Be a Good Thing

Bully Free Zone

Honestly I want to write about positive uplifting things, but I seem to keep hitting obstacles.  Like I cannot get on the freeway because of accidents and stalled vehicles scattered across the on-ramp.  Bummer!

So here’s the biggie – the obstacle – for me.  I’ve been struggling for many years with a sense of lack… about money and time.  Despite all my Course in Miracles work and my spiritual practice.   I’ve disguised the struggle by calling it “being responsible.”

There’s not enough money… I need to work harder.   I need to spend less.Bully Free Zone

And of course there are lots of judgments that go along with that lack statement.

My Course lesson the other day was this: “Let miracles replace all grievances.”  That started me wondering.  In my prayer/channeling time I asked “how is this attitude of mine linked to grievances?”

The Voice that I hear in my mind responded:  You tell yourself that the world refuses to compensate you adequately for your labors, or provide what you need.  That you are doomed to remain in lack because somehow the fit is wrong, the “rules” don’t work. You work and work, but you never have enough.

This is your grievance.  Is this true?   


That was 4 days ago.   I’ve been facing this head-on and chose to write about it, rather than something purely uplifting today.  My Inner Bully gets going here as well.. “Why don’t you focus on the good stuff?  What about positive thinking and all that blather that you usually are into?!”

But somehow, this is where I am.  I’m somewhat comforted by Brené Brown’s statement about why she chooses to study shame:  “If we want to live and love with our whole hearts, and if we want to engage with the world from a place of worthiness, we have to talk about the things that get in the way – especially shame, fear, and vulnerability.”  (From The Gifts of Imperfection, p 36)

“the things that get in the way…”  (like a chronic belief that the world refuses to provide what I need.. )

And the Course (A Course in Miracles) begins with this introduction:   “The course does not aim at teaching the meaning of love, for that is beyond what can be taught.  It does aim, however, at removing the blocks to the awareness of love’s presence, which is your natural inheritance.”  

“removing the blocks to love’s awareness…”

This is your grievance.  Is this true?  

My longstanding conviction of lack is standing in my way, a block to Truth and love.

The world doesn’t provide enough…I can’t figure it out well enough… I’m not enough.  

These last few days I’ve been confronting this belief – can you guess how many times a day?

Despite living a respectable life in a nice home with a husband who loves me and money in the bank – I lost track… but somewhere around 50-100, and that doesn’t count the ones I failed to catch.

Yep. Despite all that good stuff, I’m spending a lot of my day, my mind energy – my creative energy OMG! – telling myself untruths about lack.

I guess it’s a bit like anorexics, who see themselves and tell themselves they are fat when anyone else can see they are skin and bones and even in danger.  But they “see” a lie and believe it.

Intermittently over the last 35 years I’ve done a lot of prosperity work.  I’ve seen other dreams of mine manifest… a lovely sacred private organic garden; a wonderful husband and singing partner; a small harmony group I love; singing lead onstage; healing in my children, and more.

But the prosperity/lack issue has continued to challenge me, offering me evidence that I don’t “get it,” and cannot make these principles work for me.

no bulliesSo I’m coming out of the closet, and am going to write about this more.  I’m standing up to my Inner Bully.  Michael Beckwith says that the world is suffering from a massive belief in the illusion of lack.  It’s an epidemic.  Despite evidence to the contrary, despite personal experiences that belie that.

So while I practice the prosperity principles, I’m going to face the Dementors directly – stand up to my inner bully:  No. That is NOT true.   

I’m asking my highway roadside assistance crew (angels et al) to clear the road with me, as often as needed so I can get on the onramp.

I’ll keep you posted.

Why You Should Ask Your Angels for Help Getting Your Groove Back

I know divine help is available.  I’ve had my share of miracles and interventions.   And I never forget to ask in crisis situations.   “Help, God!”  is an intuitive reaction in me – I’d say it in a milli-second if I was sliding on ice into a semi, or if I was being mugged, or worse.

But you know, I have a lot of trouble with to-do lists, computer problems, housecleaning, problem solving, etc.   This stuff wrecks my peace on a regular basis.  I probably had a past life as a monk meditating on a mountain top. I didn’t HAVE to-do lists and email and phones ringing and text messages coming in.

So the last few weeks I’ve been practicing bringing these two worlds together – divine intervention with ordinary life challenges.Angel in stones

I forget a lot.  But today I remembered. Here’s the story.

Last week I connected with a client who wants me to photograph his place of business.  On one condition – that his duplicate Google+Local pages be corrected and the old one deleted.

Well, that’s easier said than done.  I know how it is supposed to work, but…

So, we’ll call him Greg.  Greg told me when he called Google Support for the last year, he was repeatedly disconnected – “hundreds of times!” he says.

Strangely, when I called on his behalf, so was I.  Four times in a row.  Next I was unable to complete the form, asking for support to call me – the blank-to-fill-in wouldn’t fill.

I put out a call for help from other Google photographers, and got a lot of great suggestions.  The best one was “Go to the business, walk him through it, let HIM talk with support and you support him.”

I put it off for a week.  Me?  Solve a tech problem?  For someone else?  You’re kidding… I was afraid we’d get disconnected again, or they would deny his request.

But today, I set up a meeting with him, and prayed all throughout the 30 minute drive asking for divine help.  I saw it going well, felt the satisfaction, and thanked God.

So together we filled out the form asking Google Tech Support to call us.  Immediately his phone rang.  I held my breath – would he be disconnected?  I was praying.

The call held – from India, or somewhere exotic.  Greg explained.  The guy listened and they had a real conversation. I stood nearby while he talked, for nearly 30 minutes.  Gradually, Greg became more and more verbally grateful, even chummy with the tech guy.   The call held through all this.   I was quietly elated!   Problem solved.

Now he is ready to do the photoshoot, happy with me, with the situation and immensely grateful.   We shake hands, and I walk out into the sunshine with that same gratitude.

My leather soles hit the tile walkway and send a vibration through my body.   I am happy to be alive, to be me.   I am thrilled that this client is happy, the problem is solved, and I have another job to do.

All things work together for good! I’m in a groove.  And it was my angels who helped me get it back.

I’ll be asking for help with my accounting now.  Oh, and housecleaning… and kitchen cleanup… and…

Maybe this is what Presence is all about?

What Tatiana & Maxim Can Teach

You know how sometimes the Universe – or God or FP (as Pam Grout calls the Field of Potentiality) – points things out to us in a way that’s somewhere between funny and mind-blowing?  I had one of those yesterday.

After hearing a transcendent and inspiring talk for Easter Sunday, inexplicably I fell into a pothole of anxiety around money … a favorite pothole of mine, which sometimes seems to have been around my whole life.

Anyway, I got a new angle on it… as a young wife, many years ago, I was in a situation where my partner let me down financially.   I came out determined never to let that happen again.  I became super-vigilant, with a bootstrap attitude: “If I want this done right, I’ll have to do it myself!”

Despite healing on many different levels in relationship, that one I must have missed.

My husband and I often work on healing issues together – a mixed blessing – ha!   As we were driving home, I brought this issue up and he offered to help me process it.  I agreed.

When we got home, he led me through a process around money that brought up tears and a longstanding sense of “I can’t trust my partner!  I can’t trust God.. I can’t trust myself!”

You can imagine how far that has got me… lots of issues of mistrust arise in my life, lots of months and years of “doing it myself” and not being happy with the way that plays out (I can’t trust myself either, remember?).

So the work I did focused on trust.  I want to be a woman who trusts her partner.  Who trusts God/Unseen Divine Love. Who trusts herself – both to do the right thing and to let go and let others do their part.

I can – sort of – feel what this feels like.  After the process and the tears, I felt a kind of openness to something new.

Within an hour, I was checking Facebook and came across a video.   Tatiana Volosozhar and Maxim Trankov figure-skating.   I watched spell-bound at the beauty of their synchronized and unbelievable dance.  Suddenly, he lifted and threw her in the air.  High above his head, she spun 3 times, came back down and he caught her… all on ice skates.   The dance continued.

Chills came over me.  “I could never do that.   I’d have to trust that he wouldn’t drop me!   She could be injured, paralyzed for life even if he dropped her!   I could never do that!”  As those thoughts spun through my mind the word Trust surfaced.   She trusts him implicitly.  She does her part.  He does his.

Their entire dance is built on skill and trust.  She must relax into his arms and allow herself to be thrown – and caught.  Repeatedly.


I’ve watched it three times now.  They won Olympic Gold for this dance in 2014.  Every time he throws her up I think “trust.”  I see it in my mind.   This is what Trust looks like.

I don’t know if the Universe could have given me anything that would better illustrate Trust than this.   Along with the power, beauty, intention, and success in which Trust plays a part.

I’m lacing up my skates.   Are you ready to skate with me? Screen Shot 2015-04-06 at 9.12.27 PM

Watch Tatiana and Maxim’s figure-skating program here.