What Tatiana & Maxim Can Teach

You know how sometimes the Universe – or God or FP (as Pam Grout calls the Field of Potentiality) – points things out to us in a way that’s somewhere between funny and mind-blowing?  I had one of those yesterday.

After hearing a transcendent and inspiring talk for Easter Sunday, inexplicably I fell into a pothole of anxiety around money … a favorite pothole of mine, which sometimes seems to have been around my whole life.

Anyway, I got a new angle on it… as a young wife, many years ago, I was in a situation where my partner let me down financially.   I came out determined never to let that happen again.  I became super-vigilant, with a bootstrap attitude: “If I want this done right, I’ll have to do it myself!”

Despite healing on many different levels in relationship, that one I must have missed.

My husband and I often work on healing issues together – a mixed blessing – ha!   As we were driving home, I brought this issue up and he offered to help me process it.  I agreed.

When we got home, he led me through a process around money that brought up tears and a longstanding sense of “I can’t trust my partner!  I can’t trust God.. I can’t trust myself!”

You can imagine how far that has got me… lots of issues of mistrust arise in my life, lots of months and years of “doing it myself” and not being happy with the way that plays out (I can’t trust myself either, remember?).

So the work I did focused on trust.  I want to be a woman who trusts her partner.  Who trusts God/Unseen Divine Love. Who trusts herself – both to do the right thing and to let go and let others do their part.

I can – sort of – feel what this feels like.  After the process and the tears, I felt a kind of openness to something new.

Within an hour, I was checking Facebook and came across a video.   Tatiana Volosozhar and Maxim Trankov figure-skating.   I watched spell-bound at the beauty of their synchronized and unbelievable dance.  Suddenly, he lifted and threw her in the air.  High above his head, she spun 3 times, came back down and he caught her… all on ice skates.   The dance continued.

Chills came over me.  “I could never do that.   I’d have to trust that he wouldn’t drop me!   She could be injured, paralyzed for life even if he dropped her!   I could never do that!”  As those thoughts spun through my mind the word Trust surfaced.   She trusts him implicitly.  She does her part.  He does his.

Their entire dance is built on skill and trust.  She must relax into his arms and allow herself to be thrown – and caught.  Repeatedly.

Trust.

I’ve watched it three times now.  They won Olympic Gold for this dance in 2014.  Every time he throws her up I think “trust.”  I see it in my mind.   This is what Trust looks like.

I don’t know if the Universe could have given me anything that would better illustrate Trust than this.   Along with the power, beauty, intention, and success in which Trust plays a part.

I’m lacing up my skates.   Are you ready to skate with me? Screen Shot 2015-04-06 at 9.12.27 PM

Watch Tatiana and Maxim’s figure-skating program here.

1 Comment

  1. Cortnee
    April 11, 2015

    I’m ready to skate! I’m in a financial hole at the moment too, but I’m trusting the universe has bigger plans for me! I just need to go with the day to day flow until I reach my goals.

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