Conversations with Yeshua. This is channeled material, edited minimally for clarity only. It is personal information given to me and my husband Stan, but relevant to many situations and this is one I am asked to share with the world.
Stan: I’m asking about my body… my body’s kind of structural aches and pains that are becoming chronic.
Would you reword that? Becoming implies future, correct?
Can you say something along the lines of “pains that have been with me for awhile and I’m ready to be done with them”?
S: Yeah, certainly.
Can you feel the difference in that?
S: Yes. I’m ready to move forward on healing several aspects of my body and I have different practitioners and different ways forward and I just wondered if there was any guidance.
Yes, we’re glad you asked. So are you ready for some honesty?
The Familiarity of Violence
We believe that you remain unaware of this factor. We’re going to put it into words and ask you to look at it and be willing to heal this first of all. And you will be astonished at how much else heals. That is, you have a proclivity for violence in language, in actions, in thoughts. Because you have matured and grown as a loving being, the damage has been confined to primarily your own body and aches and pains. You have not had a lot of accidents in your life. Violent thoughts can draw to yourself accidents and you have not had a lot of those.
Nevertheless those thoughts are influencing your body. Can you feel the truth in what we say or do you feel resistance?
S: No, I can feel that.
Does it feel extremely familiar to you, that way of being?
What would it take to have that not feel familiar? What would it take to release that?
S: Well, that overarching love feeling (discussed earlier here: Put Joy and Love )–bringing love to bear at every moment and every aspect.
All right, let’s take a moment and just explore that, with no other concerns about healing right now. Just explore. When we use the word violence and suggest that’s a chronic streak in your state of mind, and you can agree that this is so, can you give us a couple of recent examples of this?
S: I spoke of a terrorist that should be ground into pulp. Quite often I react with anger and violence to cars that are speeding. And there’s no love at all.
And underlying the violence would be… is it fear? Can you take it back a layer? Just peel back the layers and see what’s behind there?
S: Hmmm.. it’s kind of like if I did that I would face certain violence against me. As if I’m saying “Don’t you know that doing this will mean that you will be violently treated — or injured?”
Let yourself explore that for a moment. Just feel it. Any one of the incidents that feels close to you. Just let yourself go there. Let yourself go back.
Love and Violence
Any words, any shapes, any colors, any stories that come to you now, just speak them. If you wish, travel back in time, like you do with Inner Counselor.* There is something in you says “This is the answer to life. This is the answer to difficult, the answer to pain, the answer to problems.”
We invite you to let that unfold..
S: I’m remembering a practice we (my family) had with the dogs and cats we liked — the barnyard cats that were effective, the dogs we fell in love with. We would hold them down and run over their tales with a wagon or a tractor.
How did you feel during that?
S: Very conflicted as a young boy.
What was the conflict?
S: Deliberately hurting the creature.
And calling it Love?
Do you believe it was love?
S: “It’s for your own good.” A phrase I heard a lot. “I’ll beat you now but it’s for your own good.”
Uh-hmm. Let your heart feel that.
A Violent Prescription?
You’ve mentioned experiencing a lack of training, training that leads a young person to a better place. And in place of training was episodic violence.
And do you see how you have matured into a man who controls that violence? You are not a violent person towards other people. But you also haven’t really healed it.
It’s as if there’s a streak of violence and the anguish that goes with it running straight through your body. Vertically. And it can’t just live there peacefully, it has to be expressed. So there’s this violent edginess, watching for someone that needs a violent prescription.
Do you see how difficult it is for your body to be completely at ease, completely healthy? With that streak very present?
So think of any animal or child that you love without reservation. Who comes to mind?
S: Oh… Max.
Alright. Now put him in your arms, in your heart. Would you run over his finger to keep him from doing something that he should not?
S: It’s a bad lesson.
What would you do instead?
Can Love Be the Teacher?
S: I would talk to him. Explain things. Give him examples. Let him practice the right behavior.
And if he failed?
S: I might try it in a different setting.
Do you think love itself can be a teacher? Love and experience and wisdom? Or is violence a necessary part of teaching?
S: It’s not.
We invite you to revisit your own lessons in violence and your own tendency in that direction and put them side by side with Max. And consider if you are wiling to let them go.
This may have to happen over a period of days or weeks. You may even want to have a ceremony of release. You’ll find that when you do this, when you allow yourself to become aware and then choose to release that habitual reaction— that your body will heal so quickly you will be amazed.
A Love Brigade
S: I see a vision of a very strong rigid hedge post somewhere down the middle of my body.
S: And a kind of a love brigade of composting organisms that are starting to turn it into valuable material by slowly digesting it.
Yes. You’ll need to make a commitment to catch yourself because these violent thoughts are aimed at the world at large, at drivers and others, at yourself. They are random grenades that are thrown off. Your awareness is the first medicine.
You have to make a choice that this thought is not useful. It’s not coming from love and it’s not the way you want to live your life. Once your’ve made that intention and decision, your awareness will increase, and then it’s a matter of just breaking those habits.
Have we given you enough of a road map to find your way into healing from this?
Catch all of those thoughts and bring Max into the picture. Ask: “Would I do this to him?”
S: Right. And everyone is beloved of God.
Yes. Alright. We are glad you come to listen. We’re always glad to connect. We are always present, but an intentional connection is different than just vague awareness.
Have a blessed day.
* Inner Counselor is a process developed by Ann Nunley, MFA, Preceived September 9, 2017
Conversations with Yeshua. All rights reserved Linda Chubbuck 2017.